"Not Over You"

Dreams, that's where I have to go
To see your beautiful - face anymore
I stare at a picture of you, and listen to the radio
Hope, hope there's a conversation
Where we both admit we had it good
But until then it's alienation, I know
That much is understood - and I realize

If you ask me how I'm doing
I would say I'm doing just fine
I would lie and say that you're not on my mind
But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two
And finally I'm forced to face the truth,
No matter what I say I'm - not over you (not over you)

Damn, damn girl you do it well
And I thought you were innocent
Took this heart and put it through hell
But still you're magnificent
I'm a boomerang, doesn't matter how you throw me
I turn around and I'm back in the game
Even better than the old me
But I'm not even close without you

And if I had the chance to renew
You know there isn't a thing I wouldn't do
I could get back on the right track
But only if you'd be convinced
So until then...

Mirror on the Wall.....

With everything happening today
You don't know whether you're coming or going
But you think that you're on your way
Life lined up on the mirror don't blow it
Look at me when I'm talking to you
You looking at me but I'm looking through you
I see the blood in your eyes
I see the love in disguise
I see the pain hidden in your pride
I see you're not satisfied
And I don't see nobody else
I see myself I'm looking at the

Mirror on the wall, here we are again
Through my rise and fall
You've been my only friend
You told me that they can't understand the man I am
So why are we here talkin' to each other again

Oh, I see the truth in your lies
I see nobody by your side
But I'm with you when you are all alone
And you correct me when I'm looking wrong
I see that guilt beneath the shame
I see your soul through your window pain
I see the scars that remain
I see you Wayne, I'm looking at the...

Mirror on the wall, here we are again
Through my rise and fall
You've been my only friend
You told me that they can't understand the man I am
So why are we here talkin' to each other again

Looking at me now I can see my past
Damn I look just like my fucking dad
Light it up, that's smoke at mirrors
I even look good in the broken mirror
I see my momma smile that's a blessing
I see the change, I see the message
And no message could been any clearer
So I'm startin' with the man in the...


Mirror on the wall,

MJ taught me that.

Here we are again
Through my rise and fall
You've been my only friend
You told me that they can't understand the man I am
So why are we here talkin' to each other again

Uh...

Mirror on the wall, here we are again
Through my rise and fall
You've been my only friend
You told me that they can't understand the man I am
So why are we here talkin' to each other again

Mirror on the wall

Finally

I finally got the truth today, thanks for bumping into Tatoo on the street ( or maybe fate). Now after all these years of believing, I now know that I was lied to regularly. Cris can can confirm as she just saw him the other day and told him all about me and the new one. :-)

For the First Time

For the First Time


She's all laid up in bed with a broken heart,
While I'm drinking jack all alone in my local bar,
And we don't know how,
How we got in to this mad situation,
Only doing things out of frustration

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard,

And we don't know how,
How we got into this mess
is it god's test,
Someone help us 'cause we're doing our best,

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard

But we're gonna start by
Drinking old cheap bottles of wine,
Sit talking up all night,
Saying things we haven't for a while
A while ya
We're smiling but we're close tears,
Even after all these years,
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time

But we both know how,
How we're gonna make it work when it hurts,
When you pick yourself up,
You get kicked to the dirt,

Trying to make it work but,
Man these times are hard,

But we're gonna start by,
Drinking old cheap bottles of wine,
Sit talking u

Oh these times are hard,
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby

Mistreated, misplaced, and misunderstood.

Mistreated, misplaced, and misunderstood. That's how I feel now.
Mister " no good " , but I won't let it slow me down anymore.
I've been mistaken, always been second guessed.
Underestimated always, but surprise, I'm still around when I'm needed for something. 

You were so mean when you talked bad About me to other people, people I don't really know. You were wrong to do that. I trusted you with my feelings and my heart. I never did that about you no matter what you think.

You need to Change the voices in your head and Make them more like who you are instead and not how others think you should feel.

Our lives are so complicated and filled with so much hatred. Hatred that I know is not real. We need to Chase down all of our demons first before we can heal. Both of us. Not just you. Not just me. But both of us. We both have hatred in our heads. Hatred that we can't seem to forget. But need to forget, even when we gone. It's a heavy weight that neither of us need to carry around. 

I'm also done listening to critics, because they are everywhere. It's easy for people to be a critic when they are not going through what we are. Some we call them friends, some are almost strangers. None of them know how we really feel. They don't like how I walk, they don't get my feelings, they don't like me, they call me names. Whatever people say about me now, I won't let it get me down anymore. You should do the same. 

I was always the underdog, and the underdog is the one who surprises. You're an underdog also.

"Talking To The Moon"

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back
My neighbours think
I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I have
You're all I have

[Chorus:]
At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon.
Try to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too.
Or Am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon?

I'm feeling like
I'm famous
The talk of the town
They say
I've gone mad
Yeah
I've gone mad
But they don't know
what I know
Cause when the
sun goes down
someone's talking back
Yeah
They're talking back

[Chorus:]
At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the moon.
Try to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too.
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon?

Ahh...Ahh...Ahh..
Do you ever hear me calling
(Ahh...Ahh..Ahh..)
Ho hou ho ho hou

'Cause every night
I'm talking to the moon

Still try to get to you
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon?

Ohoooo...

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away 

"Grenade"

Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live, oh
Take, take, take it all
But you never give
Should've known you was trouble
From the first kiss
Had your eyes wide open
Why were they open?

[Bridge]
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love
Is all I ever asked
Cause what you don't understand
Is

[Chorus]
I'd catch a grenade for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on the blade for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
You know I'd do anything for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no

Black, black, black and blue
Beat me 'til I'm numb
Tell the devil I said "Hey" when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman
That's just what you are
Yeah, you smile in my face then rip the brakes out my car

[Bridge]
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love
Is all I ever asked
Cause what you don't understand
Is

[Chorus]
I'd catch a grenade for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on the blade for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
You know I'd do anything for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire
You would watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me, you're a liar
Cause you never ever ever did, baby

But, darling, I'd still catch a grenade for you
Throw my hand on the blade for you
I'd jump in front of a train for you
You know I'd do anything for you

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes I would die for you baby
But you won't do the same
No, you won't do the same
Oh, you never do the same

No, you won't do the same
You wouldn't do the same
Ooh, you'd never do the same
Oh, no no no 

We Can Work It Out

Try to see it my way,
Do I have to keep on talking till I can't go on?
While you see it your way,
Run the risk of knowing that our love may soon be gone.

Chorus:

We can work it out,
We can work it out.


Verse #2
Think of what you're saying.
You can get it wrong and still you think that it's all right.
Think of what I'm saying,
We can work it out and get it straight, or say good night.

Chorus:
We can work it out,
We can work it out.

Bridge:
Life is very short, and there's no time
For fussing and fighting, my friend.
I have always thought that it's a crime,
So I will ask you once again.

Verse #3
Try to see it my way,
Only time will tell if I am right or I am wrong.
While you see it your way
There's a chance that we might fall apart before too long.

Chorus:
We can work it out,
We can work it out.

Bridge:
Life is very short, and there's no time
For fussing and fighting, my friend.
I have always thought that it's a crime,
So I will ask you once again.

Verse #4
Try to see it my way,
Only time will tell if I am right or I am wrong.
While you see it your way
There's a chance that we might fall apart before too long.

Chorus:
We can work it out,
We can work it out.

"Secret"

You must know me, I'm one of your secrets 
You must know me, I'm one of your secrets 
I belong to you.
I belong to you.
And you belong to me. 

You must know me, I'm one of your secrets. 
From what I see, you're trying to hard to keep it. 
Well I belong to you.
I belong to you.
I belong to you.
And you belong to me. 

Look at me, I'm your hearts keeper. 
Meant for me 3:21 AM, she will be here.
Oh yes she will 
And I belong to you.
Yes, I belong to you.
I belong to you.
And you belong to me. 

Look at me, I'm one of your secrets. 
From what I see, you're trying hard to keep it. 
But I belong to you.
I belong to you.
I belong to you. 
And you belong to me.
You belong to me.
You belong to me. 

Speechless

Your love is magical, that's how I feel 
But I have not the words here to explain 
Gone is the grace for expressions of passion 
But there are worlds and worlds of ways to explain 
To tell you how I feel 
But I am speechless, speechless 
That's how you make me feel 
Though I'm with you I am far away and nothing is for real 
When I'm with you I am lost for words, I don't know what to say 
My head's spinning like a carousel, so silently I pray 
Helpless and hopeless, that's how I feel inside 
Nothing's real, but all is possible if God is on my side 
When I'm with you I am in the light where I cannot be found 
It's as though I am standing in the place called Hallowed Ground 
Speechless, speechless, that's how you make me feel 
Though I'm with you I am far away and nothing is for real 
I'll go anywhere and do anything just to touch your face 
There's no mountain high I cannot climb 
I'm humbled in your grace 
Speechless, speechless, that's how you make me feel 
Though I'm with you I am lost for words and nothing is for real 
Speechless, speechless, that's how you make me feel 
Though I'm with you I am far away, and nothing is for real 
Speechless, speechless, that's how you make me feel 
Though I'm with you I am lost for words and nothing is for real 
SpeechlessYour love is magical, that's how I feel 
But in your presence I am lost for words 
Words like, "I love you." 

I can't get over.

Sometimes, I am fine, just minding my own business, keeping my mind busy,
Then I get a text from you.
I start to tear up just because you were thinking about me at that moment,
Then at that time, I convince myself that there is still a chance,
Then I can only cry more and continue to think about you until I drink myself to sleep.
I love and miss you. I do not know how I will get along without you.
Then, I think how happy you will be and it makes its easier for me to let you go.

But no matter how I try, I still just cannot get you out of my mind.
I sit in front of the computer daily, just looking at our pictures together over the past 8 years, 9 months and 11 days since we first met (I still remember your eye lashes).

Anyway. Sometimes you need to let go of people so that they can grow and get better.
Life has taught me a lot, but not as much as the time I spent with you.

XOXO

"What Hurts The Most"

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do 

"Come Back Song"

I woke up again this morning

And wouldn't you know it... pouring rain

I went and burned a pot of coffee

And like that I poured it down the drain

'Cause I didn't know I needed you so

And letting you go was wrong

And baby I know you got your radio on

So this is my my bad, come back song

I know I said I wouldn't miss you

But now I'm saying I'm a fool

You're on the feel good side of leaving

And I'm the backside of a mule

'Cause I didn't know I needed you so

And letting you go was wrong

And baby I know you got your radio on

So this is my so sad come back song

And now I'm laying down without you

In this king size empty bed

And I wish I had my arms around you

Now I'll just dream of you instead

'Cause I didn't know I needed you so

And letting you go was wrong

And baby I know you got your radio on

So this is my get back, come back

Hey, I didn't know I needed you so

And letting you go and letting you go was wrong

And baby I know you got your radio on

So this is my my bad, come back song

Oh yeah yeah

I know I said I wouldn't miss you I said I wouldn't miss you girl, yeah

Na na na na na na na Na na na na na na na Na na na na na na na

We all sang na na na na na na na Na na na na na na na Na na na na na na na, yeah

Come on now

This is my my bad, come back song

Stuck Like Glue

Absolutely no one that knows me better 
No one that can make me feel sooo goooood 
How did we stay so long together? 
When everybody, everybody said we never would 
And just when I, I start to think they're right 
That love has died... 

[Chorus:]
There you go making my heart beat again, 
Heart beat again, 
Heart beat again 
There you go making me feel like a kid 
Won't you do it and do it one time? 
There you go pulling me right back in, 
Right back in, 
Right back in 
And I know-oo I'm never letting this go-ooo 

I'm stuck on you 
Whutooo whutooo 
Stuck like glue 
You and me baby we're stuck like glue 
Whutooo whutooo 
Stuck like glue 
You and me baby we're stuck like glue 

Some days I don't feel like trying 
Some days you know I wanna just give up 
When it doesn't matter who's right, thought about it all night 
Had enough 
You give me that look 
"I'm sorry baby let's make up" 
You do that thing that makes me laugh 
And just like that... 

[Chorus:]
There you go making my heart beat again, 
Heart beat again, 
Heart beat again 
There you go making me feel like a kid 
Won't you do it and do it one time 
There you go pulling me right back in, 
Right back in, 
Right back in 
And I know-oo I'm never letting this go-ooo 

I'm stuck on you 
Whutooo whutooo 
Stuck like glue 
You and me baby we're stuck like glue 
Whutooo whutooo 
Stuck like glue 
You and me baby were stuck like glue 

Whutooo Whutoo 

You almost stay out, too stuck together from the ATL 
Whutooo Whutoo 
Feeling kinda sick? 
Just a spoon full of sugar make it better real quick 

I say 
Whutooo Whutoo 
Whatcha gonna do with that? 
Whutooo Whutoo 
Come on over here with that 
Sugar sticky sweet stuff 
Come on give me that stuff 
Everybody wants some 
Melodies that get stuck 

Up in your head 
Whutooo whutooo 

Up in your head 
Whutooo whutooo 

Up in your head 
Whutooo whutooo 

Up in your head 
Whutooo whutooo 
Whuthoo whutooo 
Stuck like glue 
You and me together, say, it's all I wanna do 
I said 

[Chorus:]
There you go making my heart beat again, 
Heart beat again, 
Heart beat again 
There you go making me feel like a kid 
Won't you do it and do it one time 
There you go pulling me right back in, 
Right back in, 
Right back in 
And I know-oo I'm never letting this go-ooo 

There you go making my heart beat again, 
Heart beat again, 
Heart beat again 
There you go making me feel like a kid 
Won't you do it and do it one time 
There you go pulling me right back in, 
Right back in, 
Right back in 
And I know-oo I'm never letting this go-ooo 
I'm stuck on you 

Whutooo whutooo 
Stuck like glue 
You and me baby we're stuck like glue 
Whutooo whutooo 
Stuck like glue 
You and me baby were stuck like glue 
Whutooo whutooo 
Stuck like glue 
You and me baby we're stuck like glue